Feeling lost

It has been a long time since I have posted anything…

In May, it will be a year when I lost my Dad.I go to work and come home .I totally lost my passion to sew.I feel so lost.I have so many ideas in my head,but my mind,body and my heart won’t connect.Is it normal to feel this way? I have so many projects and fabric around . I won’t budge to touch it.It is bad enough to work in a fabric and craft store and have more ideas pop in my head.

My First Pillow

It was very hard going through my Dad’s clothes…I made this pillow different…I added his overalls and his shirt…I even gave it my Dad’s gut…I am going to spray his aftershave to it …

Things are happening

Sorry that I haven’t been around lately…

I lost my father in May from a massive heart attack ….then the following week my cat, Shadow was killed by a car…I haven’t had any interest of sewing or crocheting…Right now, we are in the process of renting a house…It is just going to be my husband, my youngest daughter, my brother and his girlfriend, and myself…My older two children live with my mom..since they are over the age of 20…If we get this house…I will finally have Chole back with me…

Moved

Last Wednesday..We were told to leave from my in-laws ..Guess what…They gave my husband an ultimatum …Them or me…He picked me…They tried to take my youngest daughter from us…didn’t happen!!! The good thing about this ,we are now living with my mom..I have Shadow and Axle with me…I don’t have Chole yet….We don’t have to pay $320 a week anymore…We can stay here until we can afford our own place….

I wish

I wish …That people can see what I see…..and hear what I hear….

I am tired of the comments behind my back….I wish that he would stand up for me and protect me….

I want to live my life the way I want it…I want to free of it …

I wish that having a job matters to people….

I hate that I am constantly judged because I do things differently….people needs to see their own flaws before judging me ….