Paintings #3 & #4

I had two paintings that I started.At first,I wasn’t into them and I stopped.I was getting frustrated.

So, today on my day off.I went to my job and gotten some more brushes. Plus, white paint ,because I use the paint cover the canvas.Especially, when I am not into the painting.

This particular painting ,I really enjoyed working on. It is more of an Autumn type theme.

Finished Painting

I am finally finished my painting…I am pretty happy with the results..

I am glad that I waited for daylight to finish it.I also noticed that my stress level is going down.

This from last night before I lost daylight.I thought the painting needed something

As you can see it looked so plain without any scenery.

Inspiration

Today started as a semi normal day at work…it was very busy

After work,I did some shopping and got more canvas and paints.I decided to watch some Bob Ross..

Then it hit me…my inspiration…I decided on a different type of painting.I am not a landscape type of person,but I am trying…

It isn’t done yet…I have to get more colors and different brushes.Not bad for a first try.

Painting

It has been a very long time, since I posted anything.I have been working the whole time during this covid situation.

I have been dealing with depression.That is me still grieving since my Dad passed a year ago. I am stressing because trying to rent a house.Plus worrying about my Mom with her personal issues.

I decided to paint a picture for my oldest daughter for her birthday.

I noticed it helps me relax a little bit.So,today I decided to make this for my youngest daughter.

Feeling lost

It has been a long time since I have posted anything…

In May, it will be a year when I lost my Dad.I go to work and come home .I totally lost my passion to sew.I feel so lost.I have so many ideas in my head,but my mind,body and my heart won’t connect.Is it normal to feel this way? I have so many projects and fabric around . I won’t budge to touch it.It is bad enough to work in a fabric and craft store and have more ideas pop in my head.

Moved

Last Wednesday..We were told to leave from my in-laws ..Guess what…They gave my husband an ultimatum …Them or me…He picked me…They tried to take my youngest daughter from us…didn’t happen!!! The good thing about this ,we are now living with my mom..I have Shadow and Axle with me…I don’t have Chole yet….We don’t have to pay $320 a week anymore…We can stay here until we can afford our own place….

I wish

I wish …That people can see what I see…..and hear what I hear….

I am tired of the comments behind my back….I wish that he would stand up for me and protect me….

I want to live my life the way I want it…I want to free of it …

I wish that having a job matters to people….

I hate that I am constantly judged because I do things differently….people needs to see their own flaws before judging me ….