It has been a long time since I have posted anything…
In May, it will be a year when I lost my Dad.I go to work and come home .I totally lost my passion to sew.I feel so lost.I have so many ideas in my head,but my mind,body and my heart won’t connect.Is it normal to feel this way? I have so many projects and fabric around . I won’t budge to touch it.It is bad enough to work in a fabric and craft store and have more ideas pop in my head.
Last Wednesday..We were told to leave from my in-laws ..Guess what…They gave my husband an ultimatum …Them or me…He picked me…They tried to take my youngest daughter from us…didn’t happen!!! The good thing about this ,we are now living with my mom..I have Shadow and Axle with me…I don’t have Chole yet….We don’t have to pay $320 a week anymore…We can stay here until we can afford our own place….
I wish …That people can see what I see…..and hear what I hear….
I am tired of the comments behind my back….I wish that he would stand up for me and protect me….
I want to live my life the way I want it…I want to free of it …
I wish that having a job matters to people….
I hate that I am constantly judged because I do things differently….people needs to see their own flaws before judging me ….
It is very gloomy outside…I haven’t posted in a while…There has been a lot going on in my life…Dealing with depression…It sucks the life out of me…Trying to deal with life …Hardship is the worst…. I got into an agruement with my husband the other day….I almost threw out my sewing stuff….I haven’t sewed or crocheted in a while….
I love my Axle….. He kisses tears away …..when you are upset…Â He is my baby…..
I have been taking pictures of Axle lately….He is a good boy…..
He knows when something is wrong….I love how our pets can sense things….
Chole always wants me to pet her and so does Kyle….
I have been dealing with a lot of issues lately with my family…..
I also dealing with issues with school….and work is tiring me out…..
I try my hardest…..
I know that sometimes…I talk about my in laws in a negative manner…
That is because they are my in laws and we have different views on many things….
As of now….My father in law was transferred to a different hospital……
We found out that he was having mini silent strokes….
Monday….he had a procedure due to open the main arteries to help with the strokes….
We were just informed that he has to get open heart surgery on Friday…..
The stress is overwhelming ……
I am trying to get everything done for my family….
Plus, schoolwork,housework,work,and driver…and everything else….
Please pray for my family ….as we go through this rough patch……
Lately…I have been working…
I have been under a lot of stress…
School work,family,sewing,a blown tire, and other things….
I have been taking pictures of my animals …my new latest hobby…
I find it relaxing like my other things …that I like to do….
This is Kyle
This is my Chole
This is my Axle…
I know it has been a while since I posted last….
My depression got to me again…..I stopped sewing for a while….
My oldest daughter’s father tried to OD not once,but twice…He is getting better slowly…
I decided to make bowl cozies….
It kept popping in my head….
They are pretty easy to make…..
I did not make them with cotton thread….they can not go in the mircowave….and am I making more….
I am thankful for my Family , Friends,and my followers…. I am very full right now…
I am saving room…for rum cake….
I have to work on Black Friday….
My Chole… Sleeping on my wip…Notice that she is using my skeins of yarn for her pillow..
I used a needle and thread sewed a pillow back together… I still don’t feel like doing any major sewing…
I must be going through depression again…
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