Yesterday was going good….
Until ..my only transportation brokedown….
It was the last straw for me….
My stress level was high enough…
I just broke down……
Why me ?
Why am I getting the bad luck?
Am I getting punished for something I did or said?
My belief in the higher good is thin…..
Axle
This is Axle….
He is a Golden Lab …..
His father was a Golden Retriever and his mother was a white Labrador…
He is a big a baby….and thinks that he is lap dog….
He is over 88lbs….he whines in the car and tries to get in the front seat…
Does not like raw carrots….but loves peanut butter…
He loves to play with his squeaky toys and his rope…
He helps me when I am stressed or sad…
Axle
I usually don’t discuss about other members of my family……
I am so mad right now…..
My brother and his family has been living in my house,because they had no other place to live….
It has been three years now…..
This part of my depression……
They are destroying my house….like they destroyed my grandmother’s house…
My grandparents belongings were in our family room….My brothers stuff was piled over my grandparents belongings…..
A lot of it destroyed now….
My dolls that my grandparents made…are missing
We told my brother that he has to leave many of times….He has a job….
He gives us money for rent when he feels like giving it…..
I am at my wits end….
This part of why I eat emotionally…..
I have made progress to the quilt…
I have four panel’s done….
Plus, I bought more fabric to add to the quilt….
I also bought more bobbins and thread….
I am almost out of white thread…..
Plus, it gave me some time to myself….
Which I get little of….
I just realized that I lost five lbs….
Progress in quilt making
I had a very long day…. It is time for me to relax….
I am going to start to work on my oldest daughter’s quilt…
She is into music; so I decided on this fabric….
Let me know what you think…My oldest is 18 years old……
Fabric for my oldest daughter’s quilt.
I will keep everone posted of my progress….
Tonight, I had some homemade mac and cheese…. I tried to portion it ,but was sooo good.
My first quilt
I finally finished my youngest daughter’s quilt !!!!
This is my first quilt that I made…
Next is making a quilt for my oldest daughter……
My next post I will show the fabrics that I am using ….
I am so proud that finished it.
I did not check my weight today…. Maybe if I don’t check my everyday,I won’t feel so discouraged
Today, I am in a better mood today….
I am not letting anything ruin my day……
I am off from school for a week, I go to college online….
I am in a mood to clean my house and catch up on laundry…
I am happy that … I lost a pound…I can work onfinishing my youngest daughter’s quilt that I made her,and start working on my oldest daughter’s quilt as well.
Thank you for the support everyone!!!
Today….I am feeling so down….
I am starting back on the Lipozene…..I weighted myself….I am 285 lbs……
I am just so depressed….
I try to watch what I eat. I can’t afford being on Jenny Craig or Nutrisystem…I can’t even afford to go to a gym.My stress level is over the top right now…….
I have to finish a paper for school, babysit,take care of my family,take care of the house,and drive my husband back and forth to work. He has seizures so he can’t drive.
My birthday is at the end of the week!!! I don’t feel like celebrating!!!!
What can I do to get my life back on track?
Create clones to do everything for me?
It has been a long while since I posted on my blog. A lot has been going through my mind.Last month , I decided that I wanted to lose weight.I eat more than a normal person does. I am a emotional eater. When I get upset, I eat, I get mad upset ,I eat…..
Now it is time to make a difference……
Depression plays a big role in it….
I have been using Lipozene on and off….I am hoping if I use the product everyday ,I will lose weight. I need motivation and support. I may have my family to give me support ,but I need more outside support to help me….I have been using Neuro Sonic Energy. I love it.It gives me a lot of energy through the whole day.No jitters and no crash !
Please help me on this journey
The other day…I was talking to my youngest daughter …who is eight years old..I told her that she smelled like summer. She said to me” How do I smell like summer ,Mommy?”
I told her this “You smell like Suntan lotion and bug spray”…That is how I remember the smell of summer …. I am re-visiting one of my first blogs…..
It is summer time again…..
It takes me back to when I was a kid….
Counting down the minutes to the end of the school year.
Sitting at a school desk ,while the classroom is buzzing with excitement.
Figuring out the plans for the summer.
Maybe a family vacation,a road trip or going to the beach ?
My favorite thing was going to my grandparents house for the whole summer.
We went on day trips, going to the beach ,or taking a vacation.
What was your favorite part about summer as a child ?
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